Sunday, May 11, 2014

Forgotten Language - Cosmic Star Stuff

We wandered in space
We looked around and sighed
“This is infinite”
“But we are not”
And thought about our end
And in that moment
It was decided
That we would slowly fade
Until the last moment
Exploding the nova
Becoming scattered in space
Cosmic star stuff
Spreading out and joining others
Building them up

Creating a brilliant new star

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Forgotten Language - Native Tongues

I tried to speak it
To form those words
That everyone else spoke
Like a foreigner
Learning a new language
A foreigner
In my own world
And as I tried to copy them
To converse and belong
I found that they didn’t understand me
Or my words at all
So I crawled back in
Folded deeply inside myself
And searched
And wandered
For those words that would make them understand
But through those travels
Through those tribes and those trails
I learned I didn’t want to be them
I didn’t want to misunderstand
And as I found myself
I found my own language
My own letters and words
So I don’t need the other ones
This ancient tongue

Is enough for me

Friday, May 9, 2014

Forgotten Language - In That Night

To stay back in those shadow lands
To hide from the day’s light
To stay in the comfortable silence all my life
I hate the darkness
I repeat over and over again
I hate the darkness
But I fear the light
In the light nothing is hidden
In the light they can see it
The shadow of your soul
The shadow of your self
And you can’t hide it
For there’s no darkness to fall back into
And so I curl up in the darkness
Longing for the light
And in the silence of that night
I heard my soul whisper
“You don’t have to be afraid
Of the light”
So with unsteady steps
With weak ankles
I stumble into it

And am bathed by that glorious light

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Forgotten Language - Before I Was

I walk along those forest lined paths
I stumble on the overgrowth
The scenery of my mind
The whispers of ocean
I walk into it and dive
Searching, searching
In the ruins of forgotten reigns
In the hidden caves of unruly coasts
I’m looking for the self
That was here
Before I was
But maybe some things
Are hidden too well
Maybe some things

Aren’t meant to be found

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Forgotten Language - Let's Light A Fire

The flame I once had
It’s a burning ember
A faint glow
It fades fades fades
If I walk out into the rain
I feel like I’ll be extinguished
This little light
The only light I have left
Maybe I should let it go out
But that wild woman
That wild part of soul
She soothes me
And whispers in all her hushed tones
“Let’s light a fire in your bones”
So she rubs them together
Like sticks over a fire pit
And starts the ember
That grows to a bonfire
And settles back down

To ember line my bones

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Forgotten Language - Question

I wake up with the same thoughts
Always questioning every one of my thoughts
Is this right? Is this wrong?
There’s always a fight going on inside
I feel like my chest is going to rip apart
Everything I like, everything I wonder about
Is it okay to have these thoughts?
Why does it matter if its okay?
Why can’t I just think and feel and live without questioning myself?
Why do I feel like I am the only one that struggles?
Why do I feel like I’m the only one fighting?
I scream it in my head
And over
And over
Fighting a losing war
Why do you question yourself so incessantly?
I ask myself under choked back cries and tears
Why indeed…

Yet I still question.

Monday, May 5, 2014

Forgotten Language - Glow of Warmth, Rage of Flame

I want to feel that warmth again
I’ll swallow magma
Just to feel the heat slid down my throat
I want my veins to heat
To flow with liquid fire
I want my heart to feel the flames
That lick the outside walls
And burn them
And consume me with the inferno
Of passion

That tells me I’m alive

Sunday, May 4, 2014

Forgotten Language - I Dreamt of Being Underwater

I dreamt of being underwater
Breathing just like you, was me
Being taken to the bottom
A burial at sea

So easy not to resist
The flow that was pushing me
A sentence of non-importance
Had been written off for me

So easy to give in
To the tides that pushed and pulled
To lay down in my shallow bed
And be covered by the dirt

I dreamt of being underwater
I almost made a grave mistake
Thinking sinking was my destiny

A fate to the lost one gave